I just found myself with my forehead resting on my desk, tears in the back of my throat but unwilling to be shed. In my Facebook stream, a woman I don’t know well at all shared that she’s currently sitting where I was nine years ago Saturday; absorbing the news that her baby has died […]
Yesterday morning Tori crawled into bed with me declaring she needed cuddles. Before long we both got up and dressed, filled our bellies, and headed off to meet my friend Annie at the Wissahickon to go for a morning hike. It’s been unusually hot here in Philly – 86 degrees on Saturday – so we […]
You’ll have to forgive this, but I wrote about my reaction the new abortion ban in Arkansas over at The Uppercase Lowdown. Hope you’ll go over and give it a read, although much of it is very familiar to you long time readers. Thanks in advance.
Yesterday Tori had an epic play date; her best from school was here for about ten hours. Her friend E is adorable and sweet, and a straight up joy to have in our house. They play together perfectly with almost zero conflict, stopped only briefly to eat enough calories to do more jumping. It was […]
THIS POST WILL CONTAIN DOWNTON ABBEY SPOILERS. I knew five minutes into last night’s episode of the on-PBS-so-it’s-fancy-but-it’s-still-a-soap-opera show Downton Abbey that I should turn it off. Sybil, a character on the show, was about to give birth when she complained of swollen ankles and a headache. I immediately asked everyone on Twitter (yes, […]
I vented about the idiocy of Rep. Joe Walsh talking about how women that need life saving pregnancy terminations over at the Uppercase Lowdown if you want to read it. Also, USA Today interviewed/mentioned me in a story about it as well. Let’s all say it together: what an asshole.
I’m sad to say that Diana lost her sons yesterday. My heart breaks for her. You all were there for me; kindly send good thoughts and prayers her way… She’s gonna need them.
This morning I was sitting down at my desk and a good friend shared this post. This poor woman. It is already heartbreaking and stressful enough to find yourself in a situation where beloved babies are at risk. I applaud her decision to go ahead and try to keep the babies safe just a little […]
Today was when Nicholas and Zachary were due to be born. They would be seven years old. For me, rather than a brutal day of mourning, today marks the easing of the sadness. Because they were twins, because I was older and high risk, it’s incredibly unlikely that I would have lasted for the forty […]
This weekend was an immersion into memory. For several hours on Friday I sat with Tori, going through ancient photo albums, introducing her to her extended family in general and her grandfathers in particular. She was surprised to see Charlie’s father with shoe-polish black hair; the only picture she was familiar with was one taken […]
Today I feel like I’m bleeding. The blood spells your names. Today you feel so close. I can almost feel your six-and-a-half year old arms around me. I want to hug you tight. I want to smell your dirty boy necks. I want to yell at you to quiet down, to remind you that other […]
I was pregnant. I was pregnant with my sons, Nicholas and Zachary. I was about 23 weeks pregnant. I was uncomfortable. Swollen, bloated, exhausted, nauseous. I thought it was just twin pregnancy stuff. A week or two earlier, I’d been kicked out of the only midwife practice I could find that would accept twin pregnancies. […]