For the first time in many years, I asked Charlie this morning about driving up to the Poconos for a day trip to do a hike. It’s been years since I’ve wanted to do that. I was thinking of a particular hike that ends at Hawk Falls, a pretty hike that we used to do frequently, and we’ve found that Tori likes hiking more if there is a “reward” at the end like seeing something beautiful.
We talked about it, but decided that we’d rather not make the three hour drive for a hike we’re not really sure we’re ready to tackle yet. But even so, I felt a bit of my old life pre-child return, but with the added bonus of including a lovely and enthusiastic almost seven year old on adventures.
We’re already talking about camping again this year, and I’m secretly hoping that we’ll get to do several weekend trips. I miss camping so fiercely; I miss cooking over the campfire, my hair smelling like smoke, and hearing nothing at night other than the sounds of the woods and crackling fires. I miss spending the days on the hiking trails, leading to a good tiredness that lends itself to sleeping in the woods and going to bed early. I miss how Charlie and I used to read to each other as we sat by the fire at the end of the night.
I felt something shift in me on our road trip. Being forced to spend so much time offline felt good. Great, even. I felt my heart and mind quiet down and settle in a way it hasn’t in years; since coming home and getting back to work and my online life I’ve felt my mind start to return to distractedness, and I haven’t liked it. I’ve found myself shutting my computer at night and watching TV without distracting my attention, and reading books instead of checking email.
I spent most of my life doing only one thing at a time, and I’ve forgotten how much better that feels. Facebook doesn’t need more than a visit a day (if that), and while I will always love Twitter, I don’t have to spend the day there.
Another thing I realized I’ve missed is my blog. I know, I still write here a couple times a week, but you know what? It was my first social media love and I want to get back here. I stopped thinking of this blog as a business about a year ago, but that doesn’t mean I need to stop giving myself over to this space. I love blogging. I love writing. This is what I want to do.
I’ve also been thinking a lot about my role in the overall blogging world, particularly the corner I’ve found myself in, which is mom blogging. While I’m still madly in love with blogging and social media (to some extent), I feel sort of… trapped. I’ve decided to start exploring some other avenues both personally and professionally. I feel excited about that! I plan to focus on getting connected to professional women outside of the social space, and also social media folks that aren’t in the mom blogging community, something I’d been exploring before and let die.
Anyway, all this rambling is just to say: I’m here. I’m getting better across all fronts. And I’m happy.
How are you?
PS: I have to share this. Have you heard of cat bearding? I still love the odd internet meme, so I decided to try it with Jax. Um, yeah. He didn’t want to be a beard. Hilarious.