“I want to jump into the book,” she says, “and tell the White Witch ‘Pretty please with a cherry on top and a puppy licking that cherry, tell Aslan you’re sorry and apologize. Then he won’t have to kill you.’ ”
I pause in that moment, struck by so many things at once that I can barely speak. I’m paralyzed by her incredible kindness first, the generosity of spirit that only children have, the ability to think of something other than killing. Unlike me, who watches the news and thinks about people who do horrible things like molest many, many children while in a position of power and how maybe, just maybe, I do believe in the death penalty after all. Then I’m wondering where on earth she heard the part about the puppy licking the cherry, because I know I’ve said “pretty please with a cherry on top” to her, but the puppy is all her.
But then I’m struck with the biggest realization of all.
“Well,” I say, “I do believe that Aslan would, indeed, spare the Witch’s life if she really, and truly meant it when she apologized. I do believe he would forgive her.”
Hardcore spiritual lesson from a five-year old, right there.
I’ve started working with a new client. Yeah, I know. Crazy, right?
My job at SEER was reduced to ten hours a week for a variety of reasons, not the least of which was because as I’ve gotten busier with traveling and speaking I’ve been finding it harder to meet their needs and my own. I’ve known for a bit, too, that in some ways what they need me to do isn’t exactly what I want to be doing, although it’s close. I’m more of a marketer than an SEO person, ultimately.
Luckily this new job is much more aligned to my goals and wants me to do what I love doing the best. Plus my traveling for speaking, etc, is better suited for this job too. I’ve been talking with them for a few months about working together, so it was serendipity that they needed me when I had some time free.
If you’re curious, the company is AboutOne, an online family management system. If you are interested in the beta version of the new product, feel free to sign up here and we’ll let you know when it’s released.
And that ends today’s commercial.
So now I have three main clients; I write two posts a day for MomCrunch, I give SEER ten hours a week, and AboutOne gets twenty hours a week. Plus I have a handful of other as-needed clients, some additional freelance writing gigs, and my own blog, etc.
This is good though. I’m happy, overall. Busy, but happy.
Tori is growing and changing so quickly I’m terrified I’m going to miss something, lose a moment with her. I need to start writing letters to her again because my GOD she’s amazing. Her behavior has improved dramatically, not counting her incessant need to dawdle in the morning as we’re trying to get her to school – the number of times I say “BRUSH YOUR TEETH” on an average morning is astronomical – but generally she listens, she cleans up her room when I ask, and she charms the pants off anyone that’s around her for more than an hour or two.
I love getting to read to her. We’ve now started Prince Caspian of the Narnia series (I tried to read her My Friend Flicka but she was both not very interested and I was cringing at the sexism), and Tori is in love with Narnia. She plays Narnia games, and managed to convince a buddy here for a playdate on Sunday that her tiny, itsy bitsy corner closet would lead to Narnia, so they spent much of their play time crouched in the closet trying to find Aslan.
Talk about a spiritual lesson. How much of my life have I sat in a small space I’ve boxed myself into, complaining that I couldn’t find God?
Too much. Far too much.
It’s funny, isn’t it, how beliefs circle around? As a child, Narnia gave me my first concrete sense of God, and now reading it to my daughter is giving it back to me again.
Life is good, people. Busy, but good.